Does coming “full circle” mean finally feeling whole, finally feeling content, FINALLY not wanting more? Does it mean I don’t have to travel via roller coaster? Does it mean that life won’t have peaks, and valleys?
I wonder if I will “come full circle in 2012.” My life has been 34 circles that are attached together. I seem to get up to the top, on a roller coaster, thrilled that I have achieved new heights, whether they are personal or professional. Then the drop, feels like a loss of adrenaline an expected nose dive. I don’t quite feel challenged on the way down. Once I get to the bottom, I feel deserted and alone. I don’t have a sense of completion, just the growing sense that things will be challenging again. I sit and wait, on the straight stretch of track that lay before the next, challenging hill, the next opportunity to come “full circle.”
Does full circle mean the absence of promotions, money or new offices? Does full circle mean dating again, divorcing or meeting your soul mate? Does it mean stability and security? Is it being content?
I often tell myself to wait, things will work out. I tell myself, one day, I will “come full circle.” I don’t think it means the end of uphill climb or new challenging opportunities. I think it is the end of the downhill fast let down. I believe coming “full circle” means, the plateau at the top, and feeling content with success. It’s letting go of the chase. It is the thrill and feeling alive because you are terrified of challenges and changes. It’s learning to be content, in all area of life. That’s the challenge in coming “full circle.”
